dear lifeguard, im drowning.

It breaks my heart that you won't save me before 6. I made sure that i float my way really deep into the ocean so you can see me, when i raised my hand. if i were you,i know i would of fought all those harsh strong waves just to get you, even if it's just the pinky i'll hold. And yet, you couldn't see the effort i'll put into it. Maybe i should speak,or maybe scream loud enough. would you care then? or just imagine me as another bird in the sea?Here, i am, waves rocking me to sleep,your whispers haunting me.All i want you to do is rescue me, give me CPR, help me, find myself, show me that you care. It scares me that im wrong, because i don't see you on your high white chair, i cant believe this, im washing away deeper and deeper, with such disbelief,disappointment, and a bit frustration. Dear lifeguard i'm drowning after six.