Lately swriling circles have been appearing.

Sightly every day that i wake up, i feel like im getting lost inside my own mind. like literally. And i don't know,i'm getting frustrated because i want to escape. Maybe it's because i need something to keep me busy, All of All i hate this feeling, i want it to go away, and run and jump into a clear jar. Sometimes it feels like im dying slowly from this toxic air. i feel like i can't breathe or think right. maybe its this weather? maybe it's because im not eating enough? maybe its because im always around people yelling? maybe i just need to sleep some more.

i feel like my attention span is slowly decreasing
i feel like my mind is getting rusty every min.

well im getting close to a panic attack
and it's because im getting closer to my future
and i still feel lost, but heck, why am i speaking? (well in this case typing)
im still young, i guess. but still i like to know from now, what i want to be, lately all i have been thinking about is writing. maybe my destination in life, is behind my desk, being a writer, looking at the shadow of my pen.




*** "we wander until we find what we want to live for,and when we find it, we'll be happier than we ever imagined,but of course before we have found it ,there has to be struggles,without pain there is no joy, without hate, there is no love" ***