Today is the only night that i can fall in love with, over and over again.

Even though,today did not go as i planned,i still had a decent time with my family<3
there just great.i woke up quite early today, but i had a great sleep because i had my sweet soothing lullaby sleeping with me. i got ready to go to the beach with my dad side of the family.Even though the morning felt like forever. i kept on calling devon, to let him know, the plans, to see if we can meet up for the fireworks, which was after the beach. but no one made up there minds, till the last moment. which was too late for him to come out here- puppy pouts- but it's okay, me and him have plenty of other days coming ahead.


but on with the story; we went to the beach, the sun wasn't working with us at all times and plus it was windy, so i wasn't really in the mood to get into the water, but my cousins dragged me^_^, which didnt take much force. Yes the water was freezing. but i got over it:) i startled " swimming" and what not. Then i got out to go and munch on some food. Later on while everyone was lying down relaxing (including me) the sun startled coming out and actually burning us all, like waffles.-looks at my skin- i got the baddest sunburn Dx

So while the sun was burning and smiling.
Me, Liz, Liz's mother(aunt) and my other aunt decided to go back to the water.
i was enjoying myself at first, but then the waves starting pushing me everywhere, knocking me down like if it didn't like me, because i kept on throwing the seed weed with such disgusted, in the process of this, me and everyone that came with me into the water kept on going further and further. That is when i realised i couldn't touch the 'floor' anymore, and i just..PANICKED! i kept on jumping up, because the waves kept on coming and i didnt want to drown, i kept on dragging my cousin down with me,and whispering "push me that way..help." the waves were too much for me, so i ended up drowning,swallowing all the saltwater that my lips touched,and then i panicked even more, because i couldnt get out of the water,but i still felt Liz, so i just kept on pulling her arm, so i can get up. but that wasnt working. I really thought i wasn't going to make it out of the endless ocean. And all i thought about was that a shark was going to get me from behind, and rip my spine right out.i was just terrified, and i couldnt clam down, because this is my greatest fear, getting lost in the waters, and not being able to get out. . . .


okay so i really didnt drowned and died,-laughs- xD
cause then i wouldnt be writing this.
My aunt ended up pulling me up and pushing me to the shore.
i thanked her so much-laughs-
but the lifeguard blew his whistle and told me to get out of the water because i was too short to be that far D:


so that is why i hate being short
and i need to learn how to swim.
it was a bad experience
a really bad one.


-- shortly later we ate at a restaurant and we all enjoyed because we were laughing and talking, well i speak for myself ^_^ and i enjoyed. and then we all went our own ways.i came home, and called devon wondering if he was going to come and he couldnt because of the damn time :/ and our distance sucks air x_x but anywho, while, i was here home, with this bad sunburn, my dad came downstairs and asked me to go to the roof with him... BOY was it beautiful. i was so amazed at the fireworks, (oh today is july 4th>.<) they were so pretty and colorful, i saw every aspect of those fireworks, maybe i wasn't so close like everyone else but i felt close. me and my dad talked about...well i dont remembered.. he wasn't really saying much.. because he was not at a normal state, but it was still fun, because he kept on singing and talking about non sense which made me laugh, but then again i laugh at alot of things xD the breeze felt nice, everything felt nice. Only one thing was missing and that was the soulmate. but we have next year for that. Oh while that experience i discovered that im afraid of heights but i like the feeling being scared? o.o wtf.
anyway, we went back inside because it startled getting chilly, and i only had shorts on and a shirt. OH i love the fact that we were walking on top of other roofs :DD it was really fun ^_^ i felt so free on top of my own roof. my own house.


*** another goal for this summer; go on the roof more often.****

and now im waiting for boyfrann to come home so we can watch anime :DDD