Lets just say today my mind has been wondering as it wanders.

So my mind has been weighing a lot today.And it hurts to know all the things i can think about in a matter of time.Today someone that i never met,someone that i never thought about till today had passed away.He lived in Dominican Republic with his wife. I wasn't related to him, but I'm sure that his wife was my cousin,in some sort of way.My family is a bit complicated when it comes to generations but i do love them all.And when my mother told me the news, i had chills all over.Okay that is not the point.The point is how do we know if today is our last day?- we don't know,we can't wake up every morning thinking about that question, or just thinking about death, because if so we wouldn't be living and appreciating life and those who are in it.It saddens me that i never met him and he had to pass away.Actually it saddens me that death even exists. But without death there wouldn't be life.And like imagine how the family is dealing with it. i know there hurting.As i could remember, someone in a movie had said before,people need to die because then we'll know how much we loved them, and it's true and i agree with it.With that all happening i thought of Setsuna and Tyelu, my turtles,because they did pass away a couple of months ago, and that was the first death that touched me so much and hurtled so much, because no one so close to me has ever passed away until setsuna and tyelu.And honestly i still wish my tears can bring them back in my hands...I wonder what journey there on today. But all i wanted to say to them was "i stll have the blanket where you use to sleep on" .Death is a nightmare, an enemy.That is why i try to have good days with everyone and let them know that they mean something to me, even if it's in the simplest way ever imaginable.


Other then my thinking and the events that occur, i had a lovely nice day with my mom.First i went to get new glasses and such with brother and her.I like to think that i picked out nice glasses.Which will arrive next Saturday.After that my brother left home.Me and my mom decided to shop for the things that we needed the most, as in clothes.We ate some ice cream together and we actually chatted which i adored the most.I love my mom so much.Her laughter is so contagious.-smiles-